When We’re Not “Good”
“How are you?”
“Good! How are you?”
This exchange is typical, right? And sometimes, if we’re honest, we’re just not “good”, even as we say the words. Life is not ok. Things are hard.
I don’t know what it is about us Christians in America these days, but we have this funny idea that nobody is supposed to know we’re human. It’s as if we think there’s something un-Christian about going through a difficult time and admitting it.
Satan is in this phenomena, isn’t he? He tells us that suffering is supposed to be below us as Christians. He tells us that God is unhappy with us because we’re not always happy. He breathes condemnation over us, and sometimes, we breathe it in. We begin to believe that God can’t love such broken people as we are.
That’s why I love the psalmist David so much. David went through a lot of horrible, horrible things in his life. The Psalms are full of this man’s journal entries, and we don’t have to spend much time reading them to see just how human he is. Check out some excerpts from the Psalms:
“But You, O LORD–how long?” (6:2)
“Why, O LORD, do You stand far away? Why do You hide yourself in times of trouble?” (10:1)
“Will You forget me forever?” (13:1)
“You are the God in whom I take refuge; why have You rejected me?” (43:2)
“Will the Lord spurn forever, and never again be favorable? Has His steadfast love forever ceased? Are His promises at an end for all time? Has God forgotten to be gracious? Has He in anger shut up His compassion?” (77:7-9)
Do you see how not ok David was sometimes? Do you see how hard it was at times for him to trust God? Crazy, right? And David was a man after God’s own heart! Now, of course, David preached God’s promises to himself, and of course, God gave him crazy amounts of joy, too. His life wasn’t entirely horrible. But my point is that David didn’t have any qualms about letting his humanness show. He didn’t buy Satan’s lie that struggling somehow made him less of a Christian.
And neither should we.
Did you know, Christian, that there is now no condemnation for you because you’re in Christ? Did you know that the LORD waits for you to be gracious to you? Did you know that sin has no dominion over you, because you’re no longer under the law, but under grace?
And sometimes life is not “good” at all. But still, those things are true. Why? Because God’s promises are true for you regardless of how you’re feeling or how life is going for you. They’re rooted in His fixed and immovable character.
Even when you can’t seem to find joy in God’s Word. Even when your dreams have been shattered, and you can’t say “God is good” with conviction. Even when you don’t feel like singing to Him. Even when you’re wondering where the heck He is. Even when you don’t want to love some of His children.
Even then, in your humanness, remember that you’re no less of a Christian than you ever were. Remember that although “weeping may tarry for the night, joy comes in the morning.” (Psalm 30:5)
And while it’s still night for you, remember that being a Christian isn’t about being ok; it’s about being His.